I think that I'm depressed.
Not in the true meaning of clinical depression but just generally peed off with life, the universe and everything (thank you, Douglas Adams).
With apologies to any supporters of Donald Trump who might stumble across this blog, I think that he is one of the main causes.
I've managed into my ninth decade and am very grateful for the fact that I still have (to some degree or another) all my faculties. That despite, at the age of 15, having a disease that people still die of today. The remedy was to remove a lobe of a lung and, to this day, I'm grateful for the hospital team involved in what, 64 years ago, was quite major surgery. It was after that that I had a very brief bout of post-operative clinical depression. I used to go walking for hours and hours on end alone with my thoughts. It was very short-lived. That was 64 years ago and I've never had a hint since. I count myself exceptionally fortunate.
The other thing is that I never was an ideas person. However, I'm very good at executing practical ideas provided they are within my capabilities.
I'm very grateful for the readers of the blog who have asked if I'm okay. Thank you. I apologise (again) for the fact that I've been neglecting my blogging duties.
Have any of my other readers who may be, shall we say, not as young as they once were, found that life takes a bit longer in just about every way?
Short of something really drastic happening there will be another post this coming weekend.
Everything takes me ages, and, yes, it's depressing. Having a nap and pretending it's not happening helps. It's the time of year. But look, we are both still here, and tough enough to put up with it. I liken it to a hard mountain walk. You wonder if you are ever going to get there, then bit by bit you do. Keep going, Graham.
ReplyDeleteYes, I'm with you, Graham. I think back to my younger years and wonder how I had the energy. Partly it was because I had to have the energy. There's no harm in taking life at a slower pace, even if it feels like dead slow and stop at times. Keep the brain active and the rest will follow . . . maybe.
ReplyDeleteDefinitely feeling slower and wondering how I used to do so much, but keeping busy and mentally stimulated- and you have been a great role model to,us all for many years…. I think everyone is struggling with world events in general - I am trying to focus on all the good things and hope world sanity prevails.
ReplyDeleteYou phrase it well, Graham. I may be a decade younger but I have the same feeling: Just about everything seems to take me longer than it used to. Unless it's the world that's spinning faster these days...? ;-)
ReplyDeleteBless you, Graham! Here is something that should cheer you up, at least you are not living in America! Depressing? Oh honey, I could write a book of all the reasons we Americans should be depressed. Still, we keep hanging on....and yes, as I age, I think everything takes me ages longer than it used to do. So, hang in there and enjoy your lovely island with great friends!
ReplyDeleteBetter for not rushing...and finding that I'm achieving a satisfying amount!
ReplyDeleteIn her 90s, my grandmother always said "the hurrier I go, the behinder I get"....
And still there is so much to do....
agree with you. The current political climate is depressing, too many people in power who are in it for themselves.
ReplyDeleteIt is good to read from you, Graham. This time, I was not really worried about your absence, because a) you always have a lot going on in your offline life and b) I was away myseld for two weeks.
ReplyDeleteWith the current state of affairs worldwide, it would seem natural to become depressed. One of the mysteries of clinical depression, however, is that often those people who objectively have good reason to be depressed aren‘t suffering from clinical depression, while those who seemingly have not so much tomworry about, descend into the deepest dark realm.
Your good attitude, I feel, will help you through difficult times.
ReplyDeleteYou are right about that depression source. Already dealing with a hard depression for months, since January the depression burden only builds.
I worry the American people will reach a breaking point because it is one outrageous thing after another. Fascism is here in America is real.
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